Ugh. It's so hard sometimes.
Sometimes I have good days where I am just so confident in the Lord's plan and unwavering in my trust.
But sometimes I have days like today where I am just so broken over things not happening the way I wanted/planned.
I *know* that God's ways are not my ways, and I *know* that His plan is so much bigger and better than I can imagine, but sometimes when you're right in the middle of things not going the way you hoped and you don't see a light at the end of the tunnel, it's so hard not to just wallow in self-pity. So. Hard.
I comfort myself with something I heard someone say a while back- Only God knows what it takes to mold you into the person that He wants you to be. All of those plans that I have about ways I think I should be sanctified and the great things that I could do for God... are all just total silliness to God. I can't possibly know how God plans to mold me into a Godly woman. All I can do is submit myself to his loving hands.
"Be patient, therefore, brothers, until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, being patient about it, until it receives the early and the late rains. You also, be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand. Do not grumble against one another, brothers, so that you may not be judged; behold, the Judge is standing at the door. As an example of suffering and patience, brothers, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. Behold, we consider those blessed who remained steadfast. You have heard of the steadfastness of Job, and you have seen the purpose of the Lord, how the Lord is compassionate and merciful. " -James 5:7-11
Sometimes I have good days where I am just so confident in the Lord's plan and unwavering in my trust.
But sometimes I have days like today where I am just so broken over things not happening the way I wanted/planned.
I *know* that God's ways are not my ways, and I *know* that His plan is so much bigger and better than I can imagine, but sometimes when you're right in the middle of things not going the way you hoped and you don't see a light at the end of the tunnel, it's so hard not to just wallow in self-pity. So. Hard.
I comfort myself with something I heard someone say a while back- Only God knows what it takes to mold you into the person that He wants you to be. All of those plans that I have about ways I think I should be sanctified and the great things that I could do for God... are all just total silliness to God. I can't possibly know how God plans to mold me into a Godly woman. All I can do is submit myself to his loving hands.
"Be patient, therefore, brothers, until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, being patient about it, until it receives the early and the late rains. You also, be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand. Do not grumble against one another, brothers, so that you may not be judged; behold, the Judge is standing at the door. As an example of suffering and patience, brothers, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. Behold, we consider those blessed who remained steadfast. You have heard of the steadfastness of Job, and you have seen the purpose of the Lord, how the Lord is compassionate and merciful. " -James 5:7-11
I know what you mean. It can be so hard sometimes to let go and allow God to have his way. BUT nevertheless, His grace abounds....
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